Eh...that's how I've been doing lately...just, eh. Nothing in particular wrong...but just bogged down from work, stress, parenthood...you know, the same things everyone else is bogged down with. Luckily spring is here, and the weather is getting warmer! Everyone knows by now, that summer is hands down my favorite time of the year. And these warmer temperatures and sunny days we've been having is getting me anxious for the summer fun to begin!
Eh...that's how Ellie's sleep has been...yup, it's starting to slide right back down to plain 'ol crappy. We still get a few awesome nights, but we mostly get the rough nights again. At least I didn't hold my breath...and I'm definitely not surprised...nor am I devastated. I think I'm really beginning to accept that Ellie might not ever be a stellar sleeper.
Eh...I really have to start working on something...I'm known for worrying, obsessing, and trying to plan out every little detail about the future, instead of enjoying the present. I've done it for as long as I can remember, but now, with Ellie and all the other amazing things I have in my life right now, I really want to try to just enjoy the "now" and stop obsessing and worrying about the future. I constantly find myself looking so far into the future, that today just slips by. And I have too many "todays" to miss out on if I keep doing this. So I am challenging myself...for the next 30 days...I will not obsess about or try to "micro plan" what the future holds for myself , or my family. Instead, I will live for today, and enjoy every single moment with Matt and Ellie. I will be more conscious of today, rather than filling my mind with thoughts of a year from now. Life is too short to live so much in the future. I need to enjoy the "here and now". Because I am so blessed with what I have now, and I need to enjoy every minute of it!
So there you have it...I'm good...in an "eh" sort of way! But I'm not complaining! I have a beautiful family, a job, and a roof over my head! Here's to making this weekend better than just "eh"...and here's to getting some sleep...hopefully...and if not..eh, it's not like I've never survived off of 4 hours of sleep before! Been there, done that...and I can certainly do it again!