I want it so bad.
But no matter what I do, I just can't get there...
The fighter in me says "just keep trying, you have to keep at it"
But that fighter in me is getting weaker...
I'm starting to think I have to just accept mediocracy...
...the mediocracy that I am.
It seems to come so easy to some people.
I'm jealous of those people, because for me, it does not come easy at all.
Am I being to hard on myself? Maybe.
But maybe not...will I ever be like those people I admire?
Will I ever have that talent that I lust after?
Will I ever be?